Yes I have a dream, the dream for which  I am alive, for which I can cross barriers, for which I have become insane. Still that insanity is not enough. Sometimes I think its not the dream that I am chasing. Its just like every another person's day-to-day process for "survival of fittest". Though I have grown up in a middle class family having all the basic facilities to survive, still there is always a push to expand my domain.Why??why these are required?? Is food, shelter, security, a simple cell phone to communicate with outer world, a television set for entertainment etc. not enough??Why there is a need for luxury?? This question haunts me every now and then.

I have also become the part of same thinking now, by making my desires my need. I still remember when asking for one rupee to my father and getting it feels like I have achieved something, today having thousands of rupees in my account feels nothing for me, as if there is always a feeling that it will get disappear very soon. Earlier I used to had happiness in every small things like if a friend sends me a forwarded message I get elated..aahh he/she remembers me. I always get happy when people who are important in my life is happy with me. This happiness is far far important for me than any other materialistic object.People were created to be loved.Things were created to be used. Now the vice-versa of the last line is more true.Earlier I use to think that satisfaction is the greatest desire.But I force to accept now that satisfaction has no limit, till we have long list of ever expanding desires.

I always was a very mediocre types student. Like every other father, he also push me every time  to get good marks..blah!!blah!!...and like every other child of my time I try to fulfill his expectations, though unexpected results came often(:P), still made him proud for a while by scoring a good percentage in 10th boards and unknowingly he has started to expect more from me.(Papa khete hai bada naam karega....) Things doesn't went as I planned.It was kinda illogical. Like Ekta Kapoor and Rakesh Roshan's superstition for "K" letter, I have also developed the same notion for mine by putting my dreams on the path of "K" factor. For me it was Katihar-Kolkata-Kota-Kharagpur or Kanpur(IITs). But destiny had there own plans and I land up in completely out of box, the land of sardars..NIT Jalandhar, Punjab. The insanity grows here like anything in those four years and must say I had my the best years of life there. I always think now to rewind my life once to again live those carefree life to the fullest. When we friends were in first year, we always use to have discussions.."yaar placement to ho jayegi na??" and I always said..."koi nai to TCS to le hi jayegi yaar..tension mat le"...Today I am in TCS and every other friend of my mine are in different high package getting organizations. The day I got recruited by TCS, it reminded me my lines only which I use to say to my friends during our discussions. The only driving force for me is that I am working for mighty "TATAs", honestly nothing else.Though I have no regrets as such, because I very well believe that I can't change destiny but Yes, I must have to be "insane" enough to fulfill my dreams.

"Musafir Hoon Yaaron Na Ghar Hai Na Tikhana
Mujhe Chalte Jaana Hai Bas Chalte Jaana..."